For The Sake of Saving Myself

2011-01-18T13:25:00.000-06:00

today i've realized that the only thing this is about
is truly believing that I deserve to be treated a certain way.
As long as I hold on to this, and see things this clearly,
i won't have anything left to hold on to.

I spent so much time wishing for things to somehow change.
for things to get better or get worse.
for you to disappear or
for me to have the strength to run away.

fighting you
and your demons
was never my job,
and u shouldn't have hurt me so much in the process
of turning yourself into an unrecognizable mess of a man.

all the lies and the pain
that you brought into my life
just seem so utterly pointless.

so much of this could have been avoided.

why did i wait for you?
why did i need you to change things?
Where was my strength?
why did i hope?

today, the questions i ask arent about you.
they are about me.
they are about everything
that i should have already found the answers to,
had i not been so afraid.

the wounds are healing.
the tears stopped flowing long ago.

what's left is a mess.
a mess that seems almost impossible to explain.
a mess i thought i would have to hold together til the day i died.

but today is the day i CHOOSE
not to do anymore for you
or because of you.

today i decide
that my only worry in the world
shouldn't be whether you got your dick wet
by some OTHER girl with no self worth
but about where my life is supposed to take me
where i'm going to push myself

2010-12-16T22:15:00.000-06:00

Im so sick of wishing for my life to begin.

I know what I want. I know exactly what I want. And i won't take anything less. and that's what's going to kill me.

I already know that my past is my past for a reason. I know I won't be going back. As much as i wished for some things, I know that they'll never be real. not the way i want.

imagination is a beautiful thing until life creeps up and shatters everything you've ever built. but we live and we learn. we move on. we make new plans. being jaded just seems like a sad means to an end. like giving up on all the things you thought could one day be real.

but what's worse? being jaded or being a lovesick fool? i can't say i've figured that part out yet. cuz being a fool for love, being a fool for him, it was the only thing i've ever let myself have. i never believed i could have been so disappointed.

damn what a ride it all was. what a way to destroy my life. and even worse, was being the only one that even cared that it was falling apart...

watching him come back with his sad excuses. his half assed apologies. his careless promises of what might still be. all of it is enough to drive someone insane.

it's just enough not to shut him out forever, but it could never be enough to take him back.

2010-12-16T20:41:00.000-06:00

I just dont understand you sometimes
The things you say and do.

None of your words add up to any action
and I don't think I've got more time for you

There's someone else, but that you know
and he's better than you
never thought it could be so
and that in itself leaves questions for me
of why i ever thought we'd be?

2010-12-16T20:39:00.000-06:00

Every day I think of something else I might want to say to you. I think about everything that happened. I think of every lie you told. And fact is, it's every reason I will never speak to you again.

I find it kind of sad that you have to come at me all pissed off, calling me a cunt or whatever else you think might hurt my feelings. Honestly, are we still in high school? You do realized I dont actually give a fuck what you call me, right?

And the threats... the threats are just as entertaining. Because we both know they don't mean a damn thing to me.

I'm not sure what has made you act as pathetic as you have been lately but i DO know that i am ridiculously excited to have been the one to let go of all of this bullshit. And, while I'm sure I won't be thinking about you for much longer, I get the feeling that that won't hold true for you.

Do you know why I'm not bitter, you sad little man? Do you realize what kind of a person you tried to bring down to your level? Have you even asked yourself a SINGLE question since I left you behind? Unfortunately, I already know the answers. I already know that you are too terrified to escape from your own misery. You're so afraid of what life might be like that you hide from yourself. You hide from the person you've become.

And all the girls you need to make you feel like a man. How hollow that must be. How lonely you must really be inside of there. Yet, too dumb and too stubborn to realize any of it.

Please, don't be insulted that I'm finally happy again. Don't try to bring me back down into your sad little pit of teen angst and despair. You're supposed to be a 25 year old man. Not a boy that cries for help every time I make you face who you've become

It's enough to make me crazy

2010-12-16T20:37:00.000-06:00

I've spent the last two days wondering why the fuck I even miss you. But god I'd love to see you. It might be worth the pain.

All this yelling and fighting is the same it's always been. Me digging at your heart, trying to find the hole you buried it in. You needing someone strong enough to stand up and fight. But all I am now is a tired little soldier. Battlescarred and bloodstained. Tired from the fight.

All you have to do is raise your white flag. Let me know you're ready to let go. Let me know you're ready to give in. Stop hiding behind the other women. The ones you know aren't good enough. I've talked to them. Met some of them. And they're all the same. Just pawns in this sad little game.

In a game with no winners, what's it all about? What is it you're looking for? The need for salvation or self preservation? Who can find any of that when you can't even find the truth?

And I've asked, shit, I've begged. I've given you everything I could. I gave til I lost myself somewhere inside of you. After all of that, we're still connected somehow. The world's cruel little joke is that YOU had to be the one I picked. The one I wanted more than anything. It's a shame it felt so good when I believed you wanted me back.

But now, those feelings, just like your words, they aren't allowed to mean anything to me. But every trickle, every drop of you that seems to fall into my life is one more thing to wrap up in my memory of you.

And I ask myself what all of it means. Why I can't stay angry at you. Why I wish we hadn't walked away. Why you never had the guts to fight for me. Hell, even fighting for yourself would have been worth something.

2010-12-16T20:35:00.000-06:00

If this is all you want to mean to me then why waste your time crawling back? We both know I'll run just as fast as I did before.

Self preservation isn't quite so overrated anymore, my dear. And just because you know how to look at me to make me forget about all your wrongs, doesn't make this right. It doesn't make us right.

There was a time I'd have given anything to have you to myself. Now, I've decided to give you up if it means I get to keep myself.

We both know you aren't the best. It's a shame too. that wasn't always the case, "sweetness"

2010-12-16T20:33:00.000-06:00

you did what you always do to me. you did almost nothing but it was everything i ever wanted.

2010-11-19T09:00:00.000-06:00

Sometimes I wonder what it must be like to just move on. And then I realize, you haven't.

Maybe there IS some balance in the world.

It's too bad I'm even worried about your misery. It only means I still give a flying fuck.

They say time heals all wounds but I think it's gonna take a little more than that...

Old Wishes

2010-11-18T19:27:00.001-06:00

Seriously,

I miss you.

Why the fuck haven't you come to your god damn senses already and come back to me? Why the fuck do you always have to be so stubborn? Didn't I earn this? Didn't I do everything to show you what you needed to see to know you could trust me?

I wish it didn't mean that u felt like you could walk all over me.

2010-11-17T09:40:00.000-06:00

and for every doubt
and every fear
you know just what to do
you help dry my tears

On open letter... Feel free to pass it on...

2010-11-08T10:52:00.000-06:00

I understand that in your diluted little world you might think i have continued to hold on to your things. Your dog tags have been in your grass for weeks. long before you sent me this unnecessary message.

There is no need to incoherently threaten me with "legal actions" because i want nothing to do with you, your drama, your lies, your other girlfriends... Please stay out of my life. I have avoided responding to your messages for two weeks. I know it may be hard for you to wrap your brain around this but I DON'T WANT YOU IN MY LIFE.

I do not need to be near your property for any reason... except that I am your neighbor. So before you start acting like I'm going out of my way to see you, please remember that "everything you ever wanted is only 8 houses away". Believe me when I tell you I would LOVE for you to be out of my sight for good.

If you would like to continue your unwarranted harrassment, please understand that I too have the right to take legal action against you. I'm not sure why you feel it's necessary but I understand that you're a little butthurt that I've moved on and you, obviously, haven't. I'm not even angry anymore, kevin.

Sorry your life sucks.

D*

2010-11-05T09:07:00.000-05:00

No real reason to be thinking about you
but my mind is spinning, reeling without you

"and this too shall pass" is what they say
and i cannot wait to not feel this way

my heart belongs now, to another
another kind heart, not just a lover
not just a fool that i let in
but the makings of a man who won't give in

2010-10-27T21:25:00.000-05:00

sometimes i look at you
and wonder what I'm thinking
i wonder where we're going
are we floating?
are we sinking?

the gravity of this
the fear of the fall
the push from my heart
the rush of it all

the fear of past failures
the need for some truth
the walls all around us
the warmth you exude

it's enough to make me crazy
but crazy i understand
crazy isn't that hard
after all, you're a man

nothing i can't handle
a game i won't lose
that is if you keep looking
keep searching for the truth

the truth behind my eyes
the ones you try to read
the answers to your questions
you just wait and see

all this could be worth it
it could all make sense
all this time won't be a waste
stop straddling the fence

oh the possibilities

2010-10-27T21:12:00.001-05:00

sometimes i look at you
and i wonder what this means
i wonder what im thinking
by holding back my feelings

i refuse to turn away from you,
though it might save you the trouble
of finding out just want it means
to live with double trouble

the me they all see
and the me i know i am
the freak between the sheets
the one to break a man

the person i've become
due to better or worse
the girl behind the mask
the one that feels cursed

the one that can do anything
with the right one at my side
the one worth the world
if you take the time to find me

god i can't wait til you get over this one.

2010-10-27T21:00:00.001-05:00

i know it's gonna take a while cuz she's so fresh-faced and doe-eyed
but boy I was too before you ruined my life.

im hoping i was right about how dead you are inside.
cuz nothing else could explain what's happened to my pride.

and boy do i wish it was just some collateral damage
but we both know how hard it's been to manage

between the hate and the lust
the fear and depression
at least i no longer need your attention

your affection however, ill crave til the end
still missing the days i called you my friend

a time like no other
one ill never have again
one ill never hope to find
one ill search for til the end

i know in my heart
it was too good to be true
but you were the exception
we'd broken all the rules

DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL - Rapid Hope Loss

2010-10-22T10:33:00.000-05:00

You called to say you wanted out.
Well, I can't say I blame you now.
Sometimes you've got to fold
before you're found out.
Well thanks, thanks for waiting this long to show yourself, show yourself.

Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well
and now it's gone and you're wasted on me.

I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get,
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get,
so much for, so much more

Do what you must if that's what you wish,
I can't be a party to this
you have a sense that you were born with
You'll find a way to make things right.

Yellowcard - Sure Thing Falling

2010-10-22T10:21:00.000-05:00

Of all of the places I've looked
And all of the pictures I took
One of them's here with me now
I'm finally finding out how, sure, things, fall
All sure things fall

Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down

2010-10-22T10:06:00.000-05:00

Breathe in for luck.
Breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull.
These hearts, they race, from self-control.
Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine.
We're doing fine.
We're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

The words are hushed, "let's not get busted."
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey did you get some?"
Man that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they can't hear.
So we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember.
Always remember the sound of the stereo.
The dim of the soft lights.
The scent of your hair, that you twirled in your fingers.
And the time on the clock, when we realized "It's so late!"
And this walk that we share together.
The streets were wet, and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it, and let you in.
And you stood at the door, with your hands on my waist.
And you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew...that you meant it.

2010-10-07T19:02:00.000-05:00

Have you ever thought,
for just one fucking second
that your life affects
someone other than you?
Have you ever suspected
that I've got the impression
that I can't mean a damn-thing to you?

Maybe I'm crazy, and a little bit lazy
But I know I'm too much woman for you

the grass ain't always greener
but this is much clearer:
i dont want to see the hate in you

Point it at someone
who wasn't your someone
who wouldn't have given
the world up for you

Aim it at anyone
that didn't give up everyone
just to try
to see things through

Scared and alone
with no place to call home
with nowhere to lay your dead heart
you'll keep playing this game
but things can't stay the same
so my dear, you've forced us to part

And all the regrets,
the overwhelming
upsets
would be worth it --
if you could just see
that without me, you're no one
and it's not worth bein' lonesome
but now, you'll never have me

2010-10-07T04:35:00.014-05:00

You could cut it with a knife, the tension inside.
The pain that keeps you from living your life.

And you're too scared too face it.
Afraid of what you'll see?
Could it be as bad as losing me?

They say pick your battles.
Don't rush. It's a war.
They ask "Is it worth it anymore?"
And maybe they're right. I've just lost my mind.
But you saved me from the war inside.

A battlefield inside,
scarred by lies.
A fight to the death
between a heart and a mind.
The never-ending questions,
always about you.
The never ending stirrings,
reaching for some truth.

I ask you for the freedom
to lay my mind to rest.
I need to accept this.
We couldn't stand the test.
Because time can't be blamed
for all this destruction.
No one to blame for all this disfunction.

Well tonight baby,
I'm Giving it to you.
The anger, the guilt.
I want something new.

2010-10-04T23:14:00.004-05:00

Because it's not about where this road will take us,
Cuz with you baby, everywhere I'd go.
And there's just no point in letting this shake us,
cuz I'd follow you, baby
till the end of the road

2010-10-01T20:32:00.002-05:00

And what if I was supposed to find you? If my life is nothin but a sad country song?
Does the time we've spent mean anything if I've just been running all along?

2010-09-28T20:19:00.000-05:00

Woke up today with a sinking feeling. I'm doing all I can not to let it set in.

All I have are a few tiny memories of a love I thought I'd never lose. I've thrown so much of us away, let the memories slip into space, let you take all the hurt and blame, and just had to let myself walk away.

What do I do with what I've got left? Your dogtags lying beside my bed. With thoughts of you spinning around in my head. Missing all the words left unsaid.

It's an unsettling feeling knowing that you're gone. Knowing you won't miss me, at least not for very long. Just wish I knew why you lived this way. If you could make me understand, you could make me stay.

Your imperfections didn't scare me away, you're my beautiful disaster. I still wanted you to stay. But you chased me off with your fear of yourself. You wrote me off because I told you to get help.

And now what's left of the time we spent? A cold empty heart? A big lonely bed?

Will you ever be the man you were? Would you even deserve me if your heart was pure? Reading between the lines that you cross, it's an impossible task, you've left me so lost.

I'm choosing my own path, my own existence. My own destiny, without contradictions.
Should our paths happen to cross again, would you still ask to have my hand?

2010-09-28T20:14:00.000-05:00

There's nothing left to understand...

2010-09-28T20:13:00.000-05:00

I can't believe how obvious it is that I still miss you.

I'm sick of everyone being able to read it all over my face.

2010-09-24T10:02:00.000-05:00

i just wanted you to know that you're the only person I want to see today. and you're the only thing that I think could make me feel better.

I wish I didn't feel like I wasn't whole without you here. But, without you near me, sometimes I wonder who I really am. Without you, I don't know if I'm ready for my life, or a future, or my dreams to come true. Truly, none of those things seem to matter without the right hand to hold along the way. So I'll ask you this one last time, my unfaithful friend. Push me toward my dreams and shield me from my nightmares. Hold me in my sleep, and run with me toward another day. You know I never wanted any of this before you, and it just doesn't seem right unless you're there to live with me along the way....

2010-08-18T15:30:00.000-05:00

It seems that all I ever do is wonder about the way things could be in a world where people could just be honest.

2010-08-18T15:24:00.000-05:00

spending all this time without you
can only mend my heart
and more and more i realize
we were only meant to part

deciding if that's wrong or right
is beyond what i choose to do
to finally to walk away from your lies
i've needed to find my truth

i know the best thing i ever did
was to try to change my fate
the hardest thing i've ever tried
was to turn and walk away

2010-07-11T15:23:00.000-05:00

restless nights
weary mornings
that is all thats left of us

now we're diving into our own destruction
who'll be there to pick us up?

A final goodbye

2010-06-22T18:01:00.002-05:00

U were my happiness and u took it away.
What do you expect me to do?

I need time before I can be with someone and not judge them based on all the retarded bullshit you've done in the last two years.
You just want someone to be nice to you,
and tell you how awesome you,
are instead of being a part of something real.
Something we had,
that I've never had with anyone else.

U really misunderstand my situation,
and the mess you made out of my life.
April is a loss I can take.
Tia is another.
You... Well I had to make that choice.

But fuck if I'm gonna lose myself.
You don't know how alone I really am,
how hard I try to keep from getting hurt by people like you.
People like Jordan.
And Tonya.

All of you are the same.
Self serving,
unapologetic,
untrustworthy,
disloyal,
selfish,
and you all think you're victims.

All any of you are vicitims of, is your own self destruction.

The world you people live in is unreal. You refuse hard work, and common sense, and create a mess of unnecessary drama, which everyone around you ends up having to clean up.

You all guilt people into believing you're somehow victims in situations you create for yourselves. It's actually pretty ridiculous.
Though it does explain why you care(d) about them so much.
They're just like you.

Hard to reply to that mess, isn't it?
That's what's left of my feelings for you.
The rest, gets pushed away.

All but the anger.
Cuz I still dream about all the ways I want to hurt you.
When that stops,
my life will be for the better.

Just the thought of what you turned my life into makes my throat burn.
It boils my blood.

But damn if I don't look at you,
and all that just disappears.

It's too bad you can barely look me in the eye
knowing that I know the real you.
The beautiful monster you've tried to hide for so long.

You were right knowing I'd disappear once I figured you out.
You shouldn't have made me do it.

You should have thrown yourself out there with a force so big,
it pulled you at your core.
Then you'd know what it felt like every time you lied to me.
Every time you hurt me.

Because as of right now,
all you feel is a little guilt.
But you lack all compassion.
You have for a long time.
We both know you lost it before me but you really tried to make me believe it was there.

That, somehow,
you were still human.
That you hadn't changed.

But you've lost your soul.
What did u sell it for?
What did u give up your life for?

Certainly nothing that you can touch.
Nothing that you can say made it all worth it.

And because of that, I refuse to let you be that thing for me any longer.
You don't deserve my compassion,
much less my pity.

Shit,
you don't deserve this little life lesson of a text message either,
but I'm in a giving mood.

So, take back your shit life,
your stupid decisions,
your inconsiderate attitude,
and all your stupid fucking hollow lies.

Then shove them all up your ass.
That is,
if you think there's any room left in there
with your head taking up so much of the space...

2010-06-22T10:08:00.000-05:00

The thin line of sanity
escapes my every reach
the cold blade of heartbreak
is indifferent to my needs

the fierce burn of anger
keeps bubbling in my vains
and baby, you'll not soon forget
no, you'll never forget my name

we already know this game's for fools
but a games no fun unless you break some rules
so lets break 'em all and throw the pieces out
lets make our own and forget our doubts

let's enjoy the moment
can't really make it last
cuz both of us cant escape the past

can't escape the demons
or run from regret
but we can set ourselves free
and try to forget

2010-06-22T10:02:00.000-05:00

Dear life:
please help me out here
i need a break
gotta get myself outta here

2010-06-13T17:55:00.000-05:00

You thought that you could fool me,
but all you did was kid yourself.
cuz u don't know shit about me.
i'd be worried for your health...

you double crossed me, cheated, lied
you tore apart everything inside
but you don't get to keep me
or the love we had
you just get to live with yourself
and keep going mad

you ever fear redemption?
how about revenge?
you're not a fallen hero,
you're a deadbeat, on the edge

keep telling all those other girls
how hard things really are,
how i don't understand,
how you've got all these scars

well i'll tell you what
my dear sweet friend,
i'm coming out clean now that we're at the end
i'm coming out with hope, and karma on my side,
and baby, if i was you, i'd find a place to hide

cuz they say hell hath no fury,
and trust me, all that's true
cuz when i'm done having my fun,
there'll be nothin left of you

nothing but your tears, silent in the night
nothing but your nighmares, holding you too tight
nothing but your loneliness, and the weight of all your sins
cuz even god can't save you babe,
i promise you can't win

2010-06-12T19:03:00.001-05:00

Who cares if I miss you? Who cares if you're gone?I'm better without you. Just admit that you're wrong!

2010-06-12T01:24:00.002-05:00

You finally gave it back.
The last piece of my heart.
So what's worse?
Knowing you broke it,
or being mad you gave it all up?

Yes, I'll always want all or nothing,
No, there's nothing you can do.
No way of changing it
but loving me the way I love you.

And the harder you fight it,
the worse it all gets.
The harder you pull away
the more it makes sense.

That you really don't want me,
or even deserve me at best.
But I still find my solitude
with my head on your chest.

So what if you don't mean it all?
It's about what it means to me.
I know you won't give it all,
break down your walls for me.

2010-06-09T21:37:00.001-05:00

Why the fuck should I wanna see you?
I already know what it will mean.
20 minutes til we start to argue
And you turn all your hate on me

2010-06-08T23:57:00.000-05:00

Fuck my life and fuck your pride
i'll see you on the other side
of this game called love
that you play so well
just love me back and i'll never tell

no one has to know
the kind of man you really are
i expected more from you
by far

but thats all a joke
and your life's a lie
i'll see you on the other side

cuz this game of love
that you play so well
it was fun
til i was the one that fell

for the petty bullshit
and all the stories told
of how, together, we'd grow old

they mean nothing now,
cuz i know the truth,
i found it out
and now i'm over you

if i could take it back,
you know i would
you never really understood

what it meant to me
to start anew
and now i have to get over you

so keep playing me
and this game called love
and break all the rules
forget all the above
aformentioned thoughts of you
and all the happiness i ever knew

it's all nothing now
because, you see,
you had to go and fuck with me

2010-06-07T22:19:00.001-05:00

If all you did was say you're sorry
If all you said was you wish you could take it back
I know you know it would all be worth it
So, tell me, what is it that you're holding back?

2010-06-07T22:12:00.001-05:00

Of all the things I've ever dreamed, you've been the only thing that's real

2010-06-04T01:29:00.000-05:00

In the end
the best revenge
is walking the fuck away

from all your made up problems
and your self destrucion
and all the games you play

and i used to envy you
for being able to just walk away
but we both know im stronger
for living with my pain

so take your bullshit
take your lies
do what you do best
just run and hide

ill be here
living with all ive got
cleaning up your mess
guess who "loves you not"

2010-06-01T11:19:00.001-05:00

The urge is the same
The situation won't change
But still, every morning, I'm calling your name.

2010-06-01T00:23:00.002-05:00

I cry every night that you're not here
And I hope that one day you'll catch these tears
Because this heart, it bleeds for only you
And no one understands me the way you do

And even if it's all a lie
I can't let go of what I feel inside
And there's nothing left inside of me
But this lonely heart, with just one need

To be in your arms, and be safe again
Even if in the end, it's all pretend
I'd pretend forever, if it meant i could keep you
I'd let go forever, if it meant I could have you

Because your arms are the place where I know how to let go
And your heart is the place I want to call home
And even though I know you're not the best for me
I just can't fight what my broken heart believes

So take me back to the place I need to be
Where I'm safe and warm
And my lonely heart believes
That happy endings really are meant to be
And despite this pain there's a place for you and me.

2010-05-31T21:06:00.004-05:00

All the thoughts of you I can't escape
Make me wish for things you won't give away
And it takes me to a terrible place
Where our hopes and dreams won't ever take shape

2010-05-31T20:58:00.002-05:00

Some things we just have to accept
Because acceptable happens to best regret
And regret takes me where I don't want to be
I place where I just want you and me

2010-05-31T19:36:00.002-05:00

At some point you just have to see
that you were meant to be with me.
At some point I just hope you'll know
there's nowhere else you'd rather go.

I hope and pray that your mistakes will fade away.
I walk around with my eyes on the ground
Don't want anyone to see the pain you've wrought inside of me
But you could fix it all, if you weren't afraid to fall

For me, and us, and give me your trust
If you'd show me your dreams and put your faith inside of me
My heart is pure, and it's always been yours
So give it up, give me your love
And tell me you can't get enough

2010-05-31T11:42:00.003-05:00

It's strange how every morning
my thoughts remain the same.
I wish things had never changed.
We weren't supposed to end this way.

Is this the end... again?

2010-05-31T04:23:00.002-05:00

Leaving a man that's been broken isn't something I thought I'd have to do but staying with a man that refuses to help himself is something I just can't deal with anymore.

2010-05-30T17:35:00.003-05:00

All the lies behind your eyes
fade away with the light of day.
Night rolls around,
and we're not so proud
that we'll let this go, today.
But the memories burn,
and with your return,
my sanity can't remain.

2010-05-30T14:47:00.001-05:00

This is a test of the "Emergency I Will Not Text My Ex-Boyfriend System"