U were my happiness and u took it away.
What do you expect me to do?
I need time before I can be with someone and not judge them based on all the retarded bullshit you've done in the last two years.
You just want someone to be nice to you,
and tell you how awesome you,
are instead of being a part of something real.
Something we had,
that I've never had with anyone else.
U really misunderstand my situation,
and the mess you made out of my life.
April is a loss I can take.
Tia is another.
You... Well I had to make that choice.
But fuck if I'm gonna lose myself.
You don't know how alone I really am,
how hard I try to keep from getting hurt by people like you.
People like Jordan.
And Tonya.
All of you are the same.
Self serving,
unapologetic,
untrustworthy,
disloyal,
selfish,
and you all think you're victims.
All any of you are vicitims of, is your own self destruction.
The world you people live in is unreal. You refuse hard work, and common sense, and create a mess of unnecessary drama, which everyone around you ends up having to clean up.
You all guilt people into believing you're somehow victims in situations you create for yourselves. It's actually pretty ridiculous.
Though it does explain why you care(d) about them so much.
They're just like you.
Hard to reply to that mess, isn't it?
That's what's left of my feelings for you.
The rest, gets pushed away.
All but the anger.
Cuz I still dream about all the ways I want to hurt you.
When that stops,
my life will be for the better.
Just the thought of what you turned my life into makes my throat burn.
It boils my blood.
But damn if I don't look at you,
and all that just disappears.
It's too bad you can barely look me in the eye
knowing that I know the real you.
The beautiful monster you've tried to hide for so long.
You were right knowing I'd disappear once I figured you out.
You shouldn't have made me do it.
You should have thrown yourself out there with a force so big,
it pulled you at your core.
Then you'd know what it felt like every time you lied to me.
Every time you hurt me.
Because as of right now,
all you feel is a little guilt.
But you lack all compassion.
You have for a long time.
We both know you lost it before me but you really tried to make me believe it was there.
That, somehow,
you were still human.
That you hadn't changed.
But you've lost your soul.
What did u sell it for?
What did u give up your life for?
Certainly nothing that you can touch.
Nothing that you can say made it all worth it.
And because of that, I refuse to let you be that thing for me any longer.
You don't deserve my compassion,
much less my pity.
Shit,
you don't deserve this little life lesson of a text message either,
but I'm in a giving mood.
So, take back your shit life,
your stupid decisions,
your inconsiderate attitude,
and all your stupid fucking hollow lies.
Then shove them all up your ass.
That is,
if you think there's any room left in there
with your head taking up so much of the space...
A final goodbye
The thin line of sanity
escapes my every reach
the cold blade of heartbreak
is indifferent to my needs
the fierce burn of anger
keeps bubbling in my vains
and baby, you'll not soon forget
no, you'll never forget my name
we already know this game's for fools
but a games no fun unless you break some rules
so lets break 'em all and throw the pieces out
lets make our own and forget our doubts
let's enjoy the moment
can't really make it last
cuz both of us cant escape the past
can't escape the demons
or run from regret
but we can set ourselves free
and try to forget
You thought that you could fool me,
but all you did was kid yourself.
cuz u don't know shit about me.
i'd be worried for your health...
you double crossed me, cheated, lied
you tore apart everything inside
but you don't get to keep me
or the love we had
you just get to live with yourself
and keep going mad
you ever fear redemption?
how about revenge?
you're not a fallen hero,
you're a deadbeat, on the edge
keep telling all those other girls
how hard things really are,
how i don't understand,
how you've got all these scars
well i'll tell you what
my dear sweet friend,
i'm coming out clean now that we're at the end
i'm coming out with hope, and karma on my side,
and baby, if i was you, i'd find a place to hide
cuz they say hell hath no fury,
and trust me, all that's true
cuz when i'm done having my fun,
there'll be nothin left of you
nothing but your tears, silent in the night
nothing but your nighmares, holding you too tight
nothing but your loneliness, and the weight of all your sins
cuz even god can't save you babe,
i promise you can't win
Who cares if I miss you? Who cares if you're gone?I'm better without you. Just admit that you're wrong!
You finally gave it back.
The last piece of my heart.
So what's worse?
Knowing you broke it,
or being mad you gave it all up?
Yes, I'll always want all or nothing,
No, there's nothing you can do.
No way of changing it
but loving me the way I love you.
And the harder you fight it,
the worse it all gets.
The harder you pull away
the more it makes sense.
That you really don't want me,
or even deserve me at best.
But I still find my solitude
with my head on your chest.
So what if you don't mean it all?
It's about what it means to me.
I know you won't give it all,
break down your walls for me.
Why the fuck should I wanna see you?
I already know what it will mean.
20 minutes til we start to argue
And you turn all your hate on me
Fuck my life and fuck your pride
i'll see you on the other side
of this game called love
that you play so well
just love me back and i'll never tell
no one has to know
the kind of man you really are
i expected more from you
by far
but thats all a joke
and your life's a lie
i'll see you on the other side
cuz this game of love
that you play so well
it was fun
til i was the one that fell
for the petty bullshit
and all the stories told
of how, together, we'd grow old
they mean nothing now,
cuz i know the truth,
i found it out
and now i'm over you
if i could take it back,
you know i would
you never really understood
what it meant to me
to start anew
and now i have to get over you
so keep playing me
and this game called love
and break all the rules
forget all the above
aformentioned thoughts of you
and all the happiness i ever knew
it's all nothing now
because, you see,
you had to go and fuck with me
If all you did was say you're sorry
If all you said was you wish you could take it back
I know you know it would all be worth it
So, tell me, what is it that you're holding back?
In the end
the best revenge
is walking the fuck away
from all your made up problems
and your self destrucion
and all the games you play
and i used to envy you
for being able to just walk away
but we both know im stronger
for living with my pain
so take your bullshit
take your lies
do what you do best
just run and hide
ill be here
living with all ive got
cleaning up your mess
guess who "loves you not"
I cry every night that you're not here
And I hope that one day you'll catch these tears
Because this heart, it bleeds for only you
And no one understands me the way you do
And even if it's all a lie
I can't let go of what I feel inside
And there's nothing left inside of me
But this lonely heart, with just one need
To be in your arms, and be safe again
Even if in the end, it's all pretend
I'd pretend forever, if it meant i could keep you
I'd let go forever, if it meant I could have you
Because your arms are the place where I know how to let go
And your heart is the place I want to call home
And even though I know you're not the best for me
I just can't fight what my broken heart believes
So take me back to the place I need to be
Where I'm safe and warm
And my lonely heart believes
That happy endings really are meant to be
And despite this pain there's a place for you and me.
